I have spent the last 20 years of my life learning to fill in the blank. As most women, especially moms, know there is a new world that we live in. A world that calls for women to have it all, to be it all and aspire to control it all. We are forced to wear many hats in a days time and it appears the powers to be keep adding more to our wardrobe.
While I selfishly admit that my strong willed personality thrives on this notion I must also admit that my spirit crushes under the demands. My heart's desire to be the best wife and mom is the equalizer in knowing when to let go and when to hang on when these two worlds clash.
This is a time of equalizing in my life.
I am married to my best friend. My husband, Kaleb, and I have three of the most precious kids you have ever meet. (Really, you can ask their Grandmas and they will tell you the same thing!) I talk to my Mom almost every day and the one person that I admire the most is my very own Daddy. I am the youngest of 4 children (much younger!) . I have a great church family and some pretty awesome friends.
We moved from Texas over 10 years to ago to sunny Florida. Even though I enjoy the sand in my feet I still long for the seasons of Northeast Texas. You can take the girl out of Texas but you can't take the Texas out of the girl!
As I creep along in my thirties heading towards that big 40 I am reminded every day of how life changes daily. Less than a year ago I was pursing a career, entertaining some very lucrative offers to now being a stay at home mom. The decision for change based upon my then 15 year old son's battle with cancer becoming the focus of my being.
Life stopped me in my tracks....
At that point, I knelt before God and prayed that he direct me towards what I allow to consume my life. Since that moment in the wee hours of the morning on the side of my son's hospital bed I have seen a new path. At times I can only see a few steps ahead but as each footprint is laid, the way ahead is wider and cleared.
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